I have been thinking about this a lot lately. Maybe it is because I am getting older or maybe it is because I have a lot going on in my life that makes me question the decisions I have made. Whatever the reason, I have come to a simple conclusion regarding what I would change if I could go back in time and talk to my younger self. Nothing.
This is not a decision I came to lightly. I have thought about every eventuality that I could think of and it all brought me back to one truth. If I went back to when I was 11 years old and whispered the one thing in my ear that I would dearly love to change (and such a silly thing it is too) then I would lose so much more than I would gain.
Just this one silly thing would send my life spiraling in a whole new direction. I would have had different interests, different friends and I would have hung out at different places. Most of that would have been a good change for so many reasons, but in the grand scheme of things it would have meant I would not be sitting here blogging right now about why I am glad I do not have the power to change the past and why I am so glad that God knows exactly what he is doing, even if I don't always understand it.
I would never have met my husband if things didn't work out how they had. If I had not met my husband I would never have had my two beautiful children. And although some may tell me that I could have had other beautiful children in the little twist of fate my whispered words would bring, I can not regret that which I do not know. I can not regret making the choices I have made because they have lead me to a love I can not imagine my life without.
If I knew then what I know now I wouldn't change a thing.
